From my book “In Search of the Letters from Christ”.
The Ego takes over control of your developing fetus from the time of the union of the semen and ovum. The new little being became an “I” immediately, feeling satisfaction and dissatisfaction in the womb, depending on its sense of comfort or discomfort and what was happening to mother.
When you were born, your instincts of survival prompted you to breathe, and become aware of an emotional emptiness and deprivation at your separation from the comfort of the confining womb. Thus was your ego cry born.
When you cried, you were given nourishment by mother, which was deeply satisfying, both physically and emotionally. When your needs were fully met, you could slip back into a state of equilibrium within sleep. When you woke from your equilibrium, you felt a sense of insecurity.
So did your ego-drive develop.
Sometimes, you cried and it was humanly decreed that it was not yet feeding time and you were left to cry for a while. This built up an awareness that needs were not always satisfied immediately and you would have to adapt. You either chose anger and cried more vigorously, or lapsed into acceptance. Neither forms of ego-drive were to be condemned or judge. They were the natural result of Creative Factor of Ego, which ensures individuality.
The EGO is the GUARDIAN of INDIVIDUALITY.
Good! I like this explanation. I always had the feeling that the ego was useful, although it was not clear for me why. Spiritual guides I’ve had throughout life continually repeated that we had to get rid of the ego, but something inside me said, what about your individuality, that enables you to be you and not someone else? It seems that here the point is well explained. Let’s see.
If you did not have this inbuilt impulse to “cry” for what you want, to make you happy, or reject what makes you sad, you would be in a limbo of nothingness.
However, the EGO DRIVE – primarily the “I” of the individual, is imprinted only with the need for Self-Satisfaction and Survival.
It must be understood that there is nothing evil about the ego-drive. It is the necessary tool of creation. It is the individual himself who brings about the imbalances in life by allowing the ego drive full control in his personality, without thought or consideration for other people.
This, too, is not to be judged or criticized, since the person possessed by ego-drive knows no other way to think or operate within the earthly dimension.
We always think that what we do is the best. We all do the same. Even thieves are convinced that they are right. And so are murderers, who believe that the other one no longer deserves to live. How awful!
The child knows nothing about self-control, other than that taught by parents and school teachers. If he wants something, he wants something right away and wonders why he shouldn’t have it. There is nothing in his mind than this. He sees something he likes, he wants it.
It is cruel to tell a child roughly: “No, you can’t have it”. His entire system is insulted and assaulted. From earliest babyhood, the training process must be initiated by logic and reassurance, affirming his right to feel secure within his environment. His sense of security should be developed by explaining the right way to express his wishes. LOVE, not irritation or anger, must choose the words which tell the child why he cannot have what he wants. The child will hear the message when given in love. When delivered in anger, it arouses his deepest ego-drives, and begins to take form as resentment, overt or hidden or a sense of deep seated frustration.
A child needs to possess his sense of personal validity and should not be subdued or destroy.
How I would like to discuss this with Ithia. I have always tried to explain to her, since she was a child, why she couldn’t have something, and why something was right or wrong.
I sincerely hope I did well. But I’m not sure. Probably I made a lot of mistakes. And now, I must choose between continuing reading or stopping, right now.
It requires parents or teachers to point out, very clearly, that other people in the world also have their needs, their rights to their possessions, their desire for peace and pleasure. No one, not even a child, or adult, has the right to upset another person in order to obtain their own satisfaction! If another youngster hits the child and makes him cry, it is only natural for the ego-drive to want to fight back. He is programmed to defend himself against the other child.
It calls for parents and teachers to point out that a “pay-back”, revenge in conflict, only escalates, bringing more pain to each child, and for this reason, “pay-back” is entirely pointless. Better to laugh and turn away.
Right, although it is difficult to change our mentality. I think most humans do think immediately how to make the other pay for the pain they caused us. Much light is required to process the events in a different way.
A child should also be taught to take time to understand that he and the other child are equally children born of the Divine Moment. When a child is spiritually receptive and can make this procedure of recognizing his spiritual kinship with other children and all living things, and the “rights of others equal with his own” into a habit, he will have been given the greatest spiritual gift possible. In such a way, is the ego-drive weakened by the practical daily application of inspirational love, whilst the central “I”ness of the child remains strong and self-confident.
Therefore, skilled and insightful teaching is absolutely necessary to steer the child into an appreciation of the rights of other people, EQUAL WITH THEIR OWN RIGHTS.
This is the spiritual law which should dominate the home and the classroom.
It’s an admirable recommendation. However, in most schools they teach mathematics, native language, history of the nation and some world history, some science and gymnastics, music or other supplement. It is rare to find issues related to the spirit. In the best of cases, some basic philosophy. That change would be good, to learn how to live in a better way, respecting the talents and capabilities of each one. It would end the “bullying”, which increases every day in schools.
Any other law by which to judge circumstances is faulty and lacking in balance.
The best teaching will rely- not on the will of the teacher- the “because I say so” attitude, but on a systematic reference in every circumstance to “brotherly love” and the equal rights of others.
At the same time, a child should not be indoctrinated in “self-sacrifice” since this type of caring must be willing and born only of the individual’s spiritual perceptions and goals.
The girl brings me the bill. It seems they will soon close the dining room. In fact, I am alone now. Well, some more paragraphs and I will go back, to sleep.
To better describe the reality of the soul and the ego, I want you to cup your hands together, finger tips touching finger tips, and wrists together, leaving a space between your cupped hands. Your hands represent the “human consciousness shell” of a person, the ego. The space correctly represents the soul, born of the “Father-Mother-Conscious-Life” at the moment of your conception. Whilst to human senses it appears to be “nothingness”, it is, in fact, an off-shoot of the ALLNESS and WHOLENESS of DIVINE CONSCIOUSNESS, out of which all created things have taken form. Your hands with the space between represent the “I”.
I try to do it discreetly. If someone sees me, they may think I am praying before going to sleep. Thankfully, the exercise does not include turning the head upside down!
Your hands represent forces of “bonding-rejection”.
Visualize that you use your right hand to “get what you want out of life”. This magnetic impulse is “spiritually intended” to be directed towards constructive purposes, gaining, holding, building, achieving. Were there no other people or living things in the world, the magnetic impulse could have full sway in a personality and no harm done.
Visualize that you use your left hand to “repel, push away, slap, or defend yourself from any unauthorized encroachment on your property or possessions or any attack on your character, family or work. This left hand represents the “magnetic impulse of rejection”, which is “spiritually intended” to ensure your privacy and save your life. It is a legitimate weapon when your physical or emotional survival is at stake, always providing you remember that your every action is an electro-magnetic activity blue-print in consciousness which rebounds and externalizes eventually in the form of a similar attack on the self.
The unpleasantness may be criticism from your parent, teacher, employer, and the words of self-defense which spring to mind and jump out of your mouth are ego-words wholly given to self-defense. And as your ego words of attack flare up into angry speech, so is the ego of your critic similarly threatened and it also rises up in him/her as words of self-defense against you.
That is the typical way to start an argument. I know it well, because I’ve experienced it a thousand times. And I have had an excellent school with Ithia. From what I’ve read, both of us must have an extremely sensitive ego.
What may have started out as a necessary and adult action of “pointing out some error and a better way to do”, is frequently immediately seen by a self-centered sensitive ego, a as a personal attack. What should have been a moment of growth, develops into a time of conflict, anger, possibly tears, ongoing resentment and mutual hostility. In such swift unexpected unnecessary ways, conflict is generated in the mind, expressed in words, even actions, and perpetuated through resentment and hatred.
The higher way, when under attack of any kind, is to remember you can instantly call upon Divine Consciousness, from which you will draw instant protection in any eventuality.
But this is only possible if you can move beyond the “magnetic ego drive of resistance”, in the perfect assurance that Divine Consciousness meets you every need.
To return to this transcendent state of glorious, beautiful, happy, harmonious being is your soul’s deepest longing!
Your true purpose in life is to gain the mastery of your ego, by reaching out in thought and feeling to “THAT” which you sense is behind Creation.
I decide to return to the sleeping car. Ithia looks at me reproachfully. She is right. She was sleepy and didn’t dare to fall asleep until I arrived. Nor did she want to go to the dining car, to avoid leaving the bags unattended. We put on our pajamas and change our boots for socks. What a relief!
She soon falls asleep. When I hear that her breathing is rhythmic, I put the latch on the door, which guarantees privacy, turn on my overhead light and keep reading.
Science can only approach creation as a spectator. The human mind can only observe what has been created. It cannot enter into the intimate processes of creation hidden within matter.
If you continue in your present level of human functioning and thought, you will only experience your present level of human existence. You will be bound down to working hard for a paltry living, beset by numerous problems, such as poverty and ill-health, addictions, immobilized by prostrating fear, and exposed to ill-intentioned attacks of all kinds.
You will be burdened by present conditions until you understand how to change them.
A sudden wobble of the train forces me to hold on tightly to the sheets. I hope Ithia won’t wake and rebuke me for reading instead of sleeping, to be rested for tomorrow. But the temptation of knowing what follows is too strong.
This is you golden opportunity to take control of your lives as never before, by getting control of your thoughts and emotions, the blue prints of your future experiences. For you are like potters possessing clay and daily shaping pots and utensils for your use.
Consciousness is the clay. By your thoughts, you can change your personal future. If you will but heed my words, understand you true origins, believe in them and use this knowledge in your daily routine. You can affect your environment, your homes, families, work, the people you associate with, and even plants, animals and climate.
Whatever you hold steadfastly in mind, externalizes.
Everything you are presently experiencing, you have created and set in motion by former thoughts, words, actions in the past. So do not resent your present circumstances, for you yourself have done whatever was the cause of your present conditions.
I’m thirsty, and pull out a plastic bottle of water we bought at the station. Then I realize that in a mesh pocket, next to my bed, there is another one. Good! I have enough to drink, but I ought to sleep. I’m very tired, in fact. But I will make an effort to advance a little more in my reading before entering the realm of Morpheus.
You would never plant a field of corn without first putting in the plough to turn the ground and then the equipment to make a fine textured soil and scatter the fertilizer. In ignorance, you could plant amongst the existing weeds in lumpy ground and omit the fertilizer and your crop would be thin and patchy. So is it when you muddle along in your earthly self-centered thoughts and live entirely in your own human knowledge, strength and will. You are limited in everything you do. And, all unknowingly, you create the very circumstances which will limit the harvest of your endeavors.
The moment that you realize from whence you have truly come, seek the Power on which you may draw to accomplish every single thing in your life, and take urgent steps to clear out the weeds, thus purifying the soil of your consciousness. You will draw on the POWER which will imbue and prosper your daily experiences and activities.
People who have given their entire willpower to living this Truth, see the undeniable fruitfulness in their lives and the “seeing” increases their faith and determination. Thus do they enter a circle of blessedness. They marvel that other people can resist this truth and choose to remain outside the spiritual and earthly harmony in which is possible to live.
As the cleansing takes place, you will experience new found happiness and fulfillment in every area of your life. You will also receive inspired directions in regard to your daily lives, either during your meditation or like a ray of light in your mind, when you are at peace and thinking of some mundane matter.
You will come to rely ever more confidently on the power beginning to be manifested in your affairs. You will want to draw others into your state of blessed harmony, for other people will be aware of it and ask you about it. Not only this. You will be experiencing a new kind of brotherly love and will want to share what makes you happy, with other people.
I look at Ithia, who is breathing peacefully. I love her, and I am grateful for her company in my life. I’ll have to read this for her, or make her read it, because it will help her a lot, just it will help many others. I think I understand the urge to share this knowledge. I have no idea how I will do it.
I cannot emphasize this Truth enough, this need to meditate, since so many people give up before they have fully cleansed their consciousness and arrived at that state of inner purification so necessary to making perfect contact with the Universal Consciousness, the Source of your Being.
I think this issue of meditation is important. I love to meditate, I really need to. There have been periods when I have meditated almost daily. And others, when I’ve been frustrated, when I refused to “make contact”, almost in protest at not having achieved what I wanted. I have also met many people who say “I meditate my way”, although it has never been clear to me which is “the other way”.
When you do make contact, seeming miracles happen! I tell you truly. If you persevere, there will come a moment when you actually feel the contact, and know that you have made contact.
For a few hours, so many souls feel uplifted and joyful but then the daily cares intrude into their minds, and they intellectualize the experience. They explain it away in human terms. Do not do this, for you will lose what you have been given. You will greatly delay your spiritual progress.
It has happened so often to me that I get to be ashamed. Because I have felt very quiet in meditation, even after a hectic day. During meditation I don’t feel fear or distress about the future. But, back to the “daily life”, it seems that I get contaminated with other people’s fear, with the apparent need to be always on guard, always alert to the urgency of making money … and the peace achieved while meditating, quickly disappears.
If you read these words and are afraid to believe them, or believe them are foolishness, or feel you will lose prestige if you believe them, you are making a creative form in consciousness which will negate any constructive response you may have originally had to this Letter. So I say to you: cherish your moments of belief, preserve your special times of contact with That Which Brought You Into Being, believe in them, and hold them fast in your consciousness and gradually you will move forward on to the heights of spiritual consciousness, to great insight and joy.
Again, I say, do not put these Letters to one side. If you cannot remember, then return and read them yet again, and yet again, until they have been absorbed into your consciousness.
This becomes an ongoing process in your life. Be of good heart. It is truly, I, the Christ, who is reaching out to you and the world through the medium of these Letters.
With half-closed eyes, I tie the pages and put them, as gently as I can, in the outside pocket of the suitcase, which is noticeably “fatter”. I turn off the light and the world disappears.
A hard, dry knock on the compartment door awakens me abruptly. As I do not react immediately, the knock is repeated. Ithia wakes up, so automatically I unlock the door. We see a man and a woman, dressed like in a movie of the Second World War. They look like Nazi officials. That’s the first impression I have, in the mist of my dream. One of them turns on the light of the compartment.
They are holding our passports, and look at Ithia and me with a seriousness that almost scares me. One of them asks, in strange English, if we have liquors or smuggled cigarettes.
Ithia makes to me a gesture that means “What are they talking about?” I tell her I will answer. Seriously, but gently, I tell the officers she is my daughter, and we do not carry liquor or cigarettes.
The officers leave.
When they leave, I look out the window and I can see a sign in the distance: Zagreb.
We are in the capital of Croatia! It’s raining cats and dogs out there. It seems like winter.
The train remains in this place a long time. I imagine they must check each and every passport. Through the window, apart from the rain, I only can see a stark station. I still have the impression of being in a post-world war film, in a country behind the Iron Curtain.
Ithia asks me:
– Why do the officers dress so weirdly?
I reply, making a great effort, because I’m sleepy, that after World War II, Croatia was a part of Yugoslavia, in the communist bloc. All that fell apart after the fall of the Berlin Wall in 1989. I guess it must be some remnants of the previous era: the architecture, clothing and attitudes, although Croatia is now an independent country, like many others in this region.
The train begins to pick up speed, I have the impression that Zagreb is really extensive, very gray, or maybe it looks so because of the rain, and it is pitch dark outside. Anyway, around the street lamps I can observe an austere city, orderly, with buildings of similar height, maybe six stories. I spend several minutes looking at streets, buildings and streetlights, and again, streets, buildings and streetlights.
Finally we leave Zagreb behind, between wobbles that give me the impression that the tracks are on a slope, because obviously we are not moving on flat ground.
My motive for sleeping has flown away, so I wait until Ithia goes to limbo, to take the papers from the suitcase again.
It is my most urgent and loving purpose to bring you out of the grey shades of existence which you presently inhabit. Criticism, sarcasm, rejection, denigration, intolerance, hatred, jealousy, aggression, violent impulses, thieving, falsehood, double and devious dealings, slander… How do you begin to get rid of any of those you know to be part of your consciousness?
Do not be too ashamed to face up to them, since you are a human being and have been born under the influence of these characteristics of the ego. So do not be too afraid or too downcast to face up to them. Take the first step in total honesty, and write them down.
The second step is to take the sheet of paper and lie down and place it on your chest. Close your eyes and reach out in thought to the Divine Reality, your Source of Being, your true Spiritual-Father-Mother. Give time to quieting your mind until you feel that you are moving beyond your own consciousness. Then ask, in perfect faith, for help in removing, dissolving, overcoming the false and unnecessary rejection ego-drives in all the days to come.
Emotionally, you make it clear to your “Spiritual Father”– and therefore to yourself- that you want no more of these ego-negatives in your consciousness. You ask for the inspiration and strength to make every effort to avoid or deny them, from that day forward.
By following this course of action, you are creating a NEW CONSCIUSNESS FORM.
I would earnestly urge you to take the paper into meditation several times, to overcoming and ridding your consciousness of unwanted consciousness forms and forces.
When they have been dissolved, they will no longer draw into your circumstances the negative and unhappy shadows which plagued you before. You will be travelling a higher path to freedom.
In place of criticism, sarcasm, rejection, denigration, intolerance, hatred, jealousy, aggression, violent impulses, thieving, falsehoods, double and devious dealings, you must write down on a piece of paper, in gold letters if possible, to give you a sense of beauty and glow about the Golden qualities of Divine Consciousness of which you want to be possessed by, and to express, in the future.
I think my list will be very long, for the negative characteristics that I want to banish. I can imagine myself on my bed with a scroll that covers me from head to toe. Or is it an exaggeration? Well, the only way to know is to write down the negative characteristics and the positive ones I want to possess. Not now, of course.
To be in perfect harmony with your Divine Reality, your Spiritual Father, each attribute will be founded on unconditional love and will promote the highest good for others. For no longer will you seek to put others down in order to make yourself feel greater and more self-confident. You will seek to nourish, nurture, teach, protect, maintain, fulfill the needs of others, and seek to loving establish order out of chaotic mindless actions.
Having written your Golden Aspirations on your sheet of paper, again lie down and reach out to your Divine Reality, and ask that the nature of the Divine may gradually spread through your mind and heart and become your own consciousness.
We wait and watch and help the people who long to find the cause of their emptiness of spirit, whose minds are being drawn to higher purposes in life, and who dream of coming into perfect attunement with their own souls and their Divine Source of Being. We yearn with love over the spiritual travelers more than the travelers even suspect. This means that we yearn with love over you, who are reading this Letter.
I want you to know that when you embark on this journey in true sincerity, I will be at your side in every eventuality. It is my dearest wish that you will come to know that I am with you and that I am sending you support and strength in your quest to become unified with your Divine Reality.
When you are again united with your Source of Being, you will have achieved your true purposes on Earth. You will have entered the Kingdom of Heaven.
I do not know at what time I fall asleep…
Again some knocks on the compartment door wake us up. Again, two inspectors review our passports, but they look more “normal”. We sit on the edge of the bunk. We are in Ljubljana, the capital of Slovenia. We spend another long time on the station. I’d rather not go to bed until we get out of here. Actually, I do not see anything through the window. But a friend of mine who visited Ljubljana told me it’s a very nice city. It is called “the city of a thousand castles” and has a river and several bridges. In one of them there is an iron dragon that, they say, waves its tail when a virgin walks by. I doubt it. Either way, I won’t get out and walk over the bridge to check the story.
Ithia gets into the bunk and quietly tucks herself in. Slowly, she closes her eyes and falls asleep.
I intend to finish reading this Letter.
Please read the next pages very carefully, whether or not you are a professing Christian, even though you may be strongly tempted to skip them. Write down your responses, ideas, and feelings, particularly any changing feelings of depression or pleasure.
This is a most important exercise, for, unless you do it, you will continue to read about “consciousness” forever, but will never reach a deep understanding how it is the basic energy of your existence, of “matter”, your body and environment, your life events, your moods, and your spiritual aspirations.
I want you to become aware of the words you use in your daily lives, the quality of life they create for you, and the impact they make on others, either lifting their moods into peace and joy, or leaving them depressed and depleted.
It is my earnest intention to reach those of you who are presently adherents of the Christian religion and are struggling with past or present religious conditioning, thus finding it difficult to extricate your perceptions from dogma in order to move freely within the finer frequencies of vibration of higher spiritual knowledge.
You may be fearing damnation if you even read these pages, and yet they have a drawing power for you and you intuitively feel that you are reading about the Truth of Existence, which you have not been taught by your ministers. You are torn by your pressing need to know the Truth and your fear of displeasing “God” in whatever form you presently perceive “Him” to be.
I, the Christ, am well aware of the distress these Letters are causing to many sincere people and I long to bring you through your disquiet to perfect peace of mind and joy.
This makes me remember my dentist, an excellent professional and a very good person, who told me that her parents are very Catholic. She spent her childhood and adolescence terrified at the idea of going to hell if she did something or failed to do something else. She has read a lot about spiritual matters, but still the idea of committing “sin” if she departs from the dogmas instilled in her, goes round in her head.
It is an absolute necessity to first analyze your present beliefs and the origins of church doctrines before continuing to teach you the deeper Truth about the nature of the Universal and the nature of man himself.
Those of you who are struggling to free yourselves of past myths and erroneous beliefs, must now come to clearly perceive for yourselves, and understand, the fundamental difference between “church belief” and the Truth of Existence I am presently attempting to explain to you. So beware and do not allow yourselves to be intimidated by threats of displeasing “God” and likely damnation.
Therefore, we will begin with a description of the origins of a belief in “God”, a name which has meant many different things to mankind. This belief began when the ancient Hebrews walked the desert plains and questioned the origins of creation. It was imagined that in some way the Source of Creation must surely be a “superhuman man-god”, invisible and far transcendent to Earth and human kind.
You must also understand that, despite the present “seeming reality” (in your minds) of such a “God” from your readings in the Bible, no one has ever glimpsed such a “superhuman man-god” in any form whatsoever, except, perhaps, Moses, who claimed he saw Him in a “burning bush”.
It is a hallmark of how illusory are religious beliefs that religionists return only to the ancients for their “truth”, since they cannot believe that “God” is truly real, eternal and equally able to speak to people in your day and age. Your ministers are terrified of any beliefs which do not meld into the old ones. They never consider –or are afraid to consider- that perhaps spiritual knowledge within the earthly dimension is evolutionary!
Sure. Everything evolves: society, technology, science. Why should spiritual knowledge not evolve, if we move forward? When I did my first researches on reincarnation, some two decades ago, it was still a “taboo” subject. Gradually, thanks to several writers, such as the psychiatrist Brian Weiss and others, the issue is far more accepted. Not quite, because it is contrary to Catholic doctrine, but at least many people are considering whether we have more than one life. In fact, it would be absolutely unfair that some were born rich and beautiful and others poor and physically unattractive. What sense would it have? Many incarnations or reincarnations, different environments allow us to know, go through a range of experiences, and learn, also evolve spiritually. I am absolutely convinced of that.
All that people are taught in the Christian faith is emotionally-based and emanates from “hearsay”, derived from early reports of my life and death on Earth. Yet these are believed fanatically. Christians are taught that God is Love and God is aware of your sin and punishes, disciplines, rewards the doers of good and sends misfortunes to the evil-doers.
This is an exact description of human activity and consciousness!
Christians are taught that I, the Christ, in the persona of Jesus, “died for the sins of the world”. I was the unblemished Lam of God sacrificed to pay the Price for people’s sinning”! I made a supreme sacrifice of myself to accomplish this strange feat of “payment of sin” down the ages.
This is very interesting, because it touches on a point that I have always questioned. If Jesus came to pay for the sins of the world … would he have paid for the sins of mankind up to the time of his death? If so…what happened with the sins of the future?
Besides, of what good would it have been to pay for the sins already committed, if others were to come in the future? How strange! Even more: What kind of God would have sent his son to pay for the sins of others? Unbelievable. In any case, it would have some sense if the sins committed were not to be repeated any more, and if also wars, diseases and poverty would have disappeared from the surface of the Earth. Otherwise, for what would have served his sacrifice? That point has not ever been clear for me and no priest has been able to answer my questions. Well, I stopped questioning Catholic priests many years ago.
Christians are taught that I again entered my body after death by crucifixion and appeared many times in the body to comfort and teach my mourning disciples. I even ate food during my appearance to them. After forty days, I ascended out of sight of my disciples, taking my body up into “heaven”.
As I asked in Letter Number Three, what would I do with a human body in “heaven”, in the life beyond? Because I said at my last supper with my disciples that they should remember my last meal with them by breaking bread and passing it to each other, and should each drink from the same cup of wine, and remember that my body was crucified and my blood spilt to bring them the Truth of Being, this incident was converted into the bizarre belief that with pomp and ceremony at the altar, my body was transferred to wafers which communicants should swallow with all due reverence.
My body! What good would my body –spiritualized or not- do for the communicant?
Can you see how the mind can be conditioned into accepting illogical nonsense which can endure almost two thousand years because it was backed by a great hierarchy of Pope, Cardinals living in palaces, immense wealth, and upheld in earthly pomp and ceremonious prestigious circumstances?
What a relief! In a book I wrote, “God, are you there?” I narrated, in some paragraphs, the experience I had during my First Communion. I was very hungry, due to previous fasting. I had been told it was a very special opportunity, and I expected to feel something very special when receiving the host. But it stuck to my upper palate, and I endured the rest of the mass trying to swallow it. I was uncomfortable, and with an enormous desire to drink a big cup of hot chocolate!
The beliefs have become a humanly conceived religious structure to enshrine an empire of Church within earthly empires, such as Rome, Austria, Spain. They have been the excuse for wholesale torture, and death by burning and execution of dissidents. They have inspired wars between nations.
Frightening. I think of the poor Cathars in southern France, who did not hurt anyone, and only wanted to return to the simplicity of early Christianity. They were eliminated during the Inquisition, because the Catholic Church decided they were heretics.
But the “spiritual perception” and “creativity” arising out of some of the beliefs have also contributed much to existence in the past two millennia. These beliefs have been the reasons for building of cathedrals and churches, monasteries and convents, giving people a stable purpose, the ability to express their artistic gifts and provided work for the less talented.
It must also be understood that down the centuries, people perceived that facets of human behavior were detrimental to the welfare of others. They witnessed killing, stealing another’s wife and possessions, causing much pain and grief in the community. It was reasoned that surely this behavior must be contrary to the will of what they termed “God”. They gave this behavior the name of “sin”, and termed it “evil”.
Moses first enshrined the belief in “sin” and “punishment” in the form of the Ten Commandments. Moses said that they were given to him by “God” and that if the Israelites broke them they would have to suffer the penalty. In some cases, this meant death by stoning.
The exact truth is, Moses went to the mountain to pray for a means by which to control the unruly Israelites. In answer to this prayer, the Ten Commandments were inspirationally given to him to help him in his task of bringing the Israelites safely through their desert sojourn, with the least degree of trouble-making.
I look out of the window into the night. We should be leaving Slovenia, but I have no idea where we are exactly. If I take the map, which is inside the bag, I would make a noise and wake Ithia up. Well, I must trust that the driver knows the way.
Religionists are happy to accept and wholeheartedly believe in a “God” which reputedly instructed Moses to engage in aggressive procedures and massacres when conquering the “promised land”. A beautiful and productive land was callously grabbed from hard working people who were slain in their thousands. This was regarded as the right thing to do, since “God” had promised them a beautiful land in which to settle. To this day, religionists believe that since “God” spoke to Moses, it must be “God” who decreed the ensuing bloodshed. There are many similar horrific descriptions of war and bloodshed in your Bible, considered permissible, just and right, because it was believed that “God” had instructed them to go to war, against Gentiles.
Can you not see in the history of the Jews, the rampant EGO-DRIVE in which even “God” is “used” to exempt them from blame? In the moment of self -aggrandizement, it became permissible and equitable to ignore the Ten Commandments and indulge in wholesale massacre. They believed no sin was involved because the killing had been ordained by “God”. What a God!
Can you not also perceive why it was necessary for me to be born in Palestine to live amongst the Jews in an effort to help them see that their traditional beliefs and practices were all contrary to the very Nature of the Divine Consciousness which had truly given them being?
All blood-letting of any description for the purpose of religious rites is paganism. The Christian church has presented its followers with nothing less than a “glorified” version of paganism.
When people make other people unhappy in any way, they are creating their own future “comeback”. Not as retribution, but as a “consciousness activity of creation”.
I’ve seen that, clearly, in several people I know. But many of them don’t want to see the cause-and-effect relationship. They attribute the “result” to other things. However, sometimes the “enlightenment” comes from absolutely unthinkable channels. Someone once spoke that we should be aware of “the third voice”, the one we hear unintentionally, on a radio, or a conversation between other people.
If your continue the search for Truth of Existence but remain in a divided state of conviction, you may continue the search at great cost to yourselves, torn by indecision, fear, a continuing inability to perceive the true meaning of the new teaching. It is a tremendous problem, because your present deep beliefs are your present truth on which you construct your daily lives.
You cannot mix your old religious beliefs with the Truth of Existence. If you try to do so, you may be sure that you are not seeing Truth.
Your consciousness creates your reality.
When people believed the Earth was flat, they were afraid to venture too far over the ocean, lest the ship should fall over the edge. The people who believed in a flat Earth, lived according to that belief. When Galileo said the Earth was round, he was considered a heretic, but his perception of the roundness of the Earth enabled sailors to take a new look at the world and set out to discover what lay the other side of the ocean. It required a change in their belief to make this possible.
Poor Galileo! He really had let himself in for a bad time by reaching the conclusion that the Earth revolves around the Sun. It was hard for him to explain that to the Catholic authorities. He had to say he was wrong. Otherwise, they would have sent him to the stake.
He was old enough, and did not seem smart enough to become a martyr. They say that when leaving the courtroom, Galileo said “Eppur if muove …”, “And yet it moves …” Who knows if that was true! In any case, he had to stay home until the end of his days. Later, of course, it was found that the Earth does revolve around the Sun.
You are in a similar position in regard to these Letters. Those people who discount and ridicule them are like the people who believed in a flat Earth and were afraid of falling over the edge if they sailed too far to the west or east of their known environment. Their horizons were severely limited by their false beliefs. So are the horizons of those people who believe the world to be solid, also severely restricted.
But the people who can grasp and welcome the Truth of Consciousness I am presently giving the world, are like those who perceived that travel on the oceans could be limitlessly undertaken in all directions. Therefore, your state of consciousness is the most important consideration in your life, not your relationships or possessions or position in life. Tend to you consciousness and the blessedness in all aspects of your life will follow.
You are the “creator” of your responses.
Remember that I have said that I yearn over the spiritual traveler’s progress. As you move along the path, I have outlined for you, there will be times of confirmation that I am indeed with you on your journey. You will see them. Retain your faith in them.
At all times, I uphold you in Divine Love for I am Divine Love in action. Believe this and find rest in my Consciousness enfolding you.
I manage to put away the sheets in the suitcase’s pocket and simply fall asleep.
Before arriving in Venice the officer wakes us again to deliver our passports.
We change our pajamas for street clothes, and tidy everything inside the compartment. A short trip to the bathroom to freshen up, and we are ready for Italy, once more.